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So another year has come and gone along with my courage
Every holiday it's always the same
A vow is made and broken to leave the monster I married
Showed up to work yet again brusting with excuses hiding my bruises
Over and over I tell myself the next time will be different
Never happens and so I sink deeper into my depression and pills
Slowly drinking myself to death with each desperate hour that passes

Beat upon day after day as if I were a WWE superstar
Even an affair I can't have for he watches me so close like a hawk
And if he caught me I am 100 sure that I'd never see daylight again
The child I wanted to give him he forced me to abort he was so jealous
I wish I did't still love him, but what can I do? 
Nowhere else for me to go and no good friends to turn to
God only knows how I'm going to break the news I'm pregnant again
Slow so slow the minutes past this day
Soon he will be off work and coming home

Then it will be truth telling time
Dare I pray he will accept my Christmas gift? 
Dare I pray this time he will want to love? 
The new life together we have made? 

2017 Ramona Thompson