I remember the first time I saw you,
How my heart skipped a beat,
I was so embarrassed at the payphone,
And what a way to meet,
I remember dressing up to see you,
And you never even knew,
I remember how sick you got,
I just wanted to take care of you,
I remember Halloween night,
I had been ready to go for hours,
I didn't think that you would call,
But you did as I turned on the shower,
I remember when you kissed me,
How the life returned to my being,
How you made me feel so beautiful,
That feeling was so freeing,
I remember each night you'd hold me,
And our morning goodbye kiss,
I remember how you loved me,
I can't forget all of this,
I remember that last night,
As I lied next to you,
How the tears fell slowly,
And somehow you knew,
I remember the airport,
Oh how I cried,
I missed you so damn much,
Like something was ripped from inside,
I remember each day that passed,
All that time without you,
Then you said you loved me,
Yet it was so hard for me to do,
But god I loved you!!
I wanted to scream it out,
Ever ounce of me needed too,
And now I live without.
I remember that February,
I drove out to phoenix,
You took my breath away,
Somehow I didn't believe it,
Every moment with you near,
I felt so whole again,
I could see it in your eyes,
The pure love you had within,
I remember your letters,
And how they made me feel,
Reading them now is soo hard,
I dont know if I will heal
I wanted to cry with the last one,
The ring remains where it was,
I would do anything for you,
But I lost all with your love
I remember being so afraid,
Time would grow to long,
Somehow I would loose you,
But then I wasn't wrong,
I remember all the things before,
The bad things I had known,
I don't know what to do now,
You've left me all alone.
I knew I was pushing you,
I tried to stop I swear,
I miss you so much now,
But I know you don't care,
I deserve the pain I'm feeling,
I deserve the life I made,
I love you so much it's killing me,
When will these memories fade?
I am tired and so lonely,
None other will ever do,
My life without you empty,
I can't stop loving you.