nightmarish

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i can't hide.

you obviously can...

with your simple ignorance...

i envy you.

in every picture i see

your eyes won't stop staring me down.

looking back now,

on the deafening ignorance

the misunderstandings

the confusion

the frustration

the obsession.

makes me wish i had never opened my mouth.

once, you acted as if you were

considering your options...

as if you saw some truth.

then if filtered in with the silence.

nothing happened.

just the other day

you appeared without warning.

i pretended like it was nothing,

believed what i told myself...

who cares

he's nothing to you anymore.

but i know what's real.

i wanted to look at you like it was the first time,

like we didn't have a past.

and i know i'm no angel,

but does it take that much trouble

to be kind?

i would have accepted it the way it was from the beginning.

yet you didn't do what you said you would.

someone must have come and blinded you

so i was no longer in your line of sight.

(you still can't see me.)

that day,

you just stared,

expecting the same.

that must have been such a shock for you.

no, i am not as predictable as you'd like to think.

more than anything i wanted to look

through my bleary eyes and see

that beauty i'd been trying to push away.

you left without a trace...

if i know you, you'll be back to taunt me.

i love the lies i tell myself and no one else.

even through this moment,

i believe in us.

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