all line up they turn and pour it down my throat
but i am not allowed to swallow
always one step away
always reaching aimlessly, grabbing at the heavy air
savaged, starving.
they put him in front of me
but i cannot be fulfilled
they dress him up in pretty packages
pretty bows
blue diamonds
golden fields
soft puffy clouds of red.
i fall under his hypnosis and
i inhale this disease