i think
i've finally figured it out
the reason why my mind
is so messed up.
i know you didn't mean to
but you still did it
never encouraging me to go after
what i dream of
always making me out to be
a foolish
little girl
telling me
that i am bothering people
and that they obviously
aren't interested in me
and don't care
one bit about me
and you know what's sad
is that most of the time
you've been right about that
he really didn't care about me
he wasn't interested
i was just bothering him
but you've screwed me up.
you've always made me feel
that i wasn't special enough
even when i tried
and i've never felt
i could live up to your standards
and guess what
whether you think so or not
the reason you make me feel so insignificant
is because
you don't want me to have
what you never had.