I am sad
I am weary
I feel constrained
I feel something looming
And something is always looming
I have laid on my back in the water before
Floating with my face just above the surface
Smiling, muscles sore
From the fun and games of it all
Yet fundamentally alone
At night I do not choose to dream
But dreams happen
Despair seems logical,
So I’ll indulge
How very clever
Cynicism makes me appear
But it does not give me friends
It does not give me cheer