I can find death in those moments of deep contentment, of
those tired resentments
wringling around all night long, on the ocean's front hand
slaps
on those brown shorelines made of mother clay, with God's face in the night
the sturm and drang of cold stomach pit moments, of deep contentment, tired emotions
this must be what it feels like to live forever on nothing but a wing and prayer
sometimes I make up plays with me at center stage, rollcall for all I've met
there's no one but me in the audience and the theater is quiet and sad, like it remembers happier times
I am a tree in the middle of a field at dusk and all you can see is my shadow body
sometimes I feel the whole world is whispering it's gonna be okay, but I know it's just me saying this
feeling freer as I grow older, I know this is fool's gold, just getting closer to that amazing ultimate solitude
the past makes me cry for all the missed opportunities, all the people who thought they were happy in those
silly moments of half smiles....where are they now?
Is it still so funny? Can I laugh in this tragedy?
Can I?