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Looking outside all I see is fog,

The cold day emerging from the even colder night,

Frost glistening in the low light,

Breath ragged and shaking,

Clouds in the sky overhead,

Sitting by the river I think about what I want,

The life I currently have,

The life I want,

Nothing at all,

Give it all up,

Ice crystals sparkle as the sun rises,

How long have I been sat here?

The peace and quiet of the countryside,

Beautiful surroundings coverd in frost, ice and snow,

The perfect winters day,

My blood searing through my veins,

Hot and fast,

I cant take this any more,

I dont want to be here,

I want to be out there,

In the river,

I know its not a good idea,

I know its cold,

I still want to do it,

I want to feel the cold caress my bare skin,

The icy coldness stilling the heat within my veins,

Breathing slowing down to a few shallow gasps,

Moaning from pleasure and pain,

A darkness surrounds me,

Pulls me in,

I want to let it pull me all the way in,

I want to be wrapped in the darkness,

Feel safe,

I want to let go,

A tear rolls down my cheek,

Glinting as the sun rises over the horizon and catches it,

A sigh escapes,

I know I need to go,

I need to move,

I dont want to,

Dont make me move,

Just a few more minutes,

Let the beauty of it all last just a second longer,

Giving in I stand up,

Unzip my coat and let it fall to the ground,

Stepping out of my shoes I head for the riverbank,

I know its cold,

I still dont care,

Stepping into the river sends goosebumps screaming across my skin,

Its so cold,

Further in I go,

Chill of the water welcoming me,

Beckoning me to go further in,

Calling my name,

Further and further I go,

Waist deep in the water and naked,

Skin has turned a pallid shade of blue-grey-purple,

Mottled from the cold,

Yet still I go on,

I want to feel it all over me,

I want to be covered,

Shivers down my spine,

Water up to my neck,

Finding it hard to breathe,

Feels like a vice has gripped my lungs,

Pain stabbing at me,

My body screaming at me to get out,

Yet I stay in the water,

I close my eyes,

Sink to my knees and fully submerge myself,

Finally free,

Finally where I want to be,

Im cold and alone,

Yet I dont seem to care.