This horror why wont it leave me? Why can't I escape the past and just move on to the future? ......because I know the future's horror also.
Why do I feel this is such a torment when it could be much worse? Though I would much rather have broken bones than a broken spirit. I feel horrible for feeling so bad. I know that doesn't make sense, but it does. To me.
What shall I do? If I forgive the past can I also forgive the future? No, will I? It will be hard I know, but I am the only one who can stop this torture. With the help of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, I know that all things are possible......