Life .. Death .. and that phone call ...

Smoke fills the air…
remnants of an addicted nature ...
An empty bottle by my side …
liquor a regular feature.  
 
A future seemingly bleak...  
My mind convoluting without brakes
I seek out the easiest escape route , 
one decision is all it takes.
  
As moments slither by ,
the ceiling fan seems friendlier ...
To end it all seems appropriate ,
a tragic end to a dismal failure 
 
I look around for an alternative, 
all routes showing none ...
I messed up bad, I know it,  
The world too small for me to run ... 
 
Just a few more moments remaining ,
a sad conclusion to the million seconds before ...
I steel myself towards the finality ...
resignation writ large on my soul .... 
 
And then the phone starts ringing ...
I wonder who the caller might be ...
the incessant ring filling up the void
begging to be answered by me... 
 
A tentative 'Maa' comes forth, 
as I recognize the caller on the phone ...
my eyes start pouring away .
as my soul unburdens my woes
 
She proclaims no miraculous mantra ...
no grand statements of inspiration ...
she simply connects to me ...
courage enough to challenge my damnation.  
 
As I recall that call over the years ...
my beautiful daughter by my side
a few roses for a stony grave
and for my dear mother who never died.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

A tribute to a loved one .. Nuff Said !!

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hurtandlost's picture

I enjoyed reading your poems!

I enjoyed reading your poems! you sure do have a way of drawing your audience in, especially with those stories :) keep up the fresh vibe!

Beavis's picture

Once again,

Simply brilliant! Total verisimilitude! Felt it to my core on both ends of the phone...and the scent of roses.

Not_A_Somalian_Guy's picture

This is generous praide ....

My gratitude for your review & the sentiment behind it :)


He who knoweth himself ... knoweth the world ....

GOHIL48's picture

i love the way u love ur

i love the way u love ur daughter <3

Not_A_Somalian_Guy's picture

Thank you .... I hope I would fully justify your sentiment ...

when I have a lovely daughter ( a son will do too !!! )

Thanks for the review, friend :)


He who knoweth himself ... knoweth the world ....

GOHIL48's picture

thaks to u for sharing :)

thaks to u for sharing :)

allets's picture

Somewhere a Rose In Sunlight

Your tone is always so sad. Even in death, there is a time a season to rejoice and feel life throbbing around you precious and vibrant, full of color and light, a contrast to the darkness, no? - Lady A (surrounded by darkness too)


 

 

Not_A_Somalian_Guy's picture

I do not know about 'always' but yes, I do dwelve on the darker

aspects of life . Thankfully it has somehow made me more appreciative of the 'other side' or the 'lighter' side as some would call .... I actually think this poem is one of my few 'lighter' or 'happier' poems .. since the end message conveyed is about the beauty of relationships , love and life.

And to the 'surrounded by darkness' thesis, all that I can hope to do would be to lend a comforting ear and a warm spirit.... from one soul to another ...

My thanks again .. for the review & the understanding :)


He who knoweth himself ... knoweth the world ....