I always assume that people are thinking the worst about me
I think I make them sick
when they discover my inner truth
they find no meaning
and laughter will follow
frightening laughter.
I cannot change my mind to a normal station
I feel I disgust
I fear I will never succeed
I feel I'm not trying
and everyone can see.
My mind plays tricks
Nervous ticks and cigarettes
Burning holes from striking, igniting liees
Brainstorming
with limited vocabulary
Whining
Can't get a point across
Clouded
Not grounded
I can feel it starting