He was mine, but I still cried.
We were fine, but still I lied.
No one approved,
Everyone disagreed.
I tried to change,
But still I deceived.
I tried to stop it,
But things took a turn.
I closed my eyes
But still felt it burn.
I was scared
So I grabbed his hand.
He let me go
Like he didn't understand...
I stood there
Or what felt like standing
As this world whirlpooled around me.
Colors spun by
And faces distorted.
Finally I trudged by
Thought I found him
But he and his rainbow
Spun by
Like I wasn't there.
She was at the same pace as I.
She held my arm
Looked in my eyes
And told me
Everything would be okay.
When she smiled I knew she was telling me the truth.
Suddenly I was taken aback
As he said
The feelings
Are still
There.
But why not hold me?
Give me your heart
I gave you mine.
I can't take back a gift.
So it's forever his.
And no matter what
Anyone
Says
You are my gift.
It stings and bites
But in the smooth center
Is molten love
Seconds from escaping.
One day
I know
It will rush to me
And when I accept it
I know
I can clean it up
Throw it out
But it will forever be
The stain on me.