THIS THING*trigger warning***

I HAVE THIS THING STUCK IN MY THROAT CALLED

"SILENCE"

(SHH DONT TELL)

THIS THING DOESN'T CARE HOW MUCH OF ME IT DEVOURS

(ITS OUR LITTLE SECRET)

THERE'S A HOLE IN MY CHEST WHERE MY HEART USE TO BE BEFORE IT WAS STOLEN

(DONT YOU TRUST ME)

SILENCE IS WHERE MY VOICE ONCE WAS BEFORE IT WAS HUSHED

(IT WONT HURT)

SILENCE WHISPERS AS LONG AS HE'S AROUND IM SAFE BUT MY SOUL IS IN AGONY

(HOLD STILL)

THIS THING HAS TO GO MY LAUGHTER RAN AWAY MY SPIRIT SHATTERED MY MIND A CLUTTERED MESS

(I WOULDNT HAVE DONE IT IF YOU WEREN'T SO BAD)

BEFORE THAT THING CAME I HAD ALL OF THOSE THINGS NOW IM A FRAGMENT OF WHAT WAS

(ITS OUR SPECIAL GAME)

THIS SILENCE IS KILLING ME CLOGGING MY THROAT

(NOBODY WILL BELIEVE YOU)

I NEED WATER

(WHY DID YOU TELL NOW EVERYBODY HATES YOU)

NOW I CAN SPEAK BUT MY THROAT IS SORE



I HAVE THIS SORE THROAT CALLED "SHAME"

(ITS ALL YOUR FAULT)

IT DOESNT CARE HOW MUCH IT DEGRADES ME

(IF I HAD TOLD SOONER)

THERES THIS SHADOW OF A PERSON I NEVER KNEW AND A PICTURE OF THE LIFE I WANT IN THE MAGAZINE

(IF ONLY I DIDNT GO IN THE BASEMENT)

SHAME SAYS AS LONG AS HES AROUND PEOPLE WONT THINK IM WEIRD BUT MY PRIDE HAS SHRUNK

(I SHOULDNT HAVE CUT SCHOOL)

THIS THING HAS TO GO BEFORE HIM I HAD A SMILE AND PIG TAILS TO SWING IN THE WIND

(IF ONLY I HAD FOUGHT HARDER)

NOW IM STUCK WITH NIGHTMARES AND REGRETS CARRYING EMBARRASSMENT LIKE AN I.D. CARD IN MY BACK POCKET

(GUESS I DESERVED IT)

MY THROAT HURTS SO BAD I CANT SWALLOW

(THEY SAY THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON)

MY THROAT FEELS RAW

(WHY AM I ACTING LIKE A BABY)

OH WELL WERE DID I PUT MY RAZOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Author's Notes/Comments: 

THIS POEM DEALS WITH MORE OF MY PAST.  WHEN I SAY THIS THING STUCK IN MY THROAT IM TALKING ABOUT THE FEAR THAT KEPT ME SILENT AND WHEN I SAY THE SORE THROAT I MEAN THE SHAME I FELT FROM THE WHOLE SITUATION

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Jessica Hart's picture

I love how you can get right to the point and let your words flow together to creat it, it lets the reader know just what you mean by the poem. Wonderful job.
~babygirl~

kelly's picture

damn gurl ur good