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I've broken so many hearts,

and

told all his secrets,

I pretend as if I'm the one

who hurts the deepest

I've pretended to hurt when others cheated

faking tears all the while

hiding a smile.

because

In all honesty, I honestly never cared,

they believed I stood before them bare,

where

only they could decipher the beating rythm

of my heart,

a heart that grew cold and at times sadistic,

I looked at them secretly regarding their lives as

simplistic.

foes who thought they had me figured out, but my mindset

is far more complex

then they knew

I was well aware of what they planned to do.

So I planned my pain accordingly

and made my moves like playing the game of poker

with my game face on.

vulnerable, distraught and destroyed.

that was always just a ploy.

because I played games and had numerous flings

pretending I cared so much when in reality

they never meant a thing.

they lied and cheated and thought my heart was broken

that's exactly what I wanted them to think,

as if I was on the brink

of losing my mind because I couldn't  live with out their love

hahahaha

its all so humurous to me, entertaining in fact,

they could never penetrate its core, its covered in black.

and those who claimed to love me, who wanted us together.

to some I vowed my eternity, promised my forever.

gave false hopes, and watched my good bye make them crumble.

your tears or pain didn't touch me because I never loved you.

I scoffed at the notion that our bond was real,

my heart has forgotten what it is to feel.

I was once the one that hurt the deepest, when I welcomed love

with who was a friend.

so now I guard myself completely until I truly feel real love again.