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Had to ask myself, like Chels, when you look in the mirror, do you even like what you see?! 

So I said hmmmm, let me think, can I really handle my own honesty?! 

N honestly 

That answer wasn't that simple, but yet I explored my inner complexity 

And as I Reflected, I was like dam, shit was really that fuzzy 

So to get a better perspective, I consulted with the voices within me 

Looked myself up down, guess  i look ok physically 

The voices began to laugh, like omg! Like really!? 

Now you know we searching for them answers, that you buried so deeply 

Fuck that surface bullshit, and answer us seriously 

Ok truth is, I kno I am the creator, of my own negativity

I beat myself up so much, it's like im my own worst enemy 

It's crazy, 

because even though I created my own truth, just to admit that out loud, was so shocking 

And that truth I did not like, so just like that, I changed it instantly 

I knew it was time to become, the person I seeked to be 

Then so Suddenly 

I felt so awake n so live, so full of this new incredible energy 

Started unlocking portals of my mind, cuz I knew magic was my key 

And my gift That introduced me to different dimensions, using sacred numerology 

Language of my universe, started thinking and moving supernaturally

Started decoding all the signs, placed inside my reality 

Enrolled into the mystery schools, as I was initiated into the Divine Three 

Where I studied the ascended masters and their esoteric philosophies 

The language they spoke, I understood, saw beyond the allegory 

Saw beyond the illusions, as I studied astrology 

Became conscious of my mind, soul and body 

The real holy trinity 

Became so addicted to seeking knowledge, as I bit from that tree

Of forbidden knowledge, that propelled me spiritually 

And the more I rised, the more I realized, from religion I had to break free 

Yeah People thought I was crazy 

And at times, I thought I was too, as I reprogrammed myself mentally

Gained back all my memories

The brainwashing ran so deep, they programmed us to think yeah it's all conspiracy 

But I knew it was all insanity 

started questioning, like where's this God y'all call the Almighty?! 

The more I questioned, the more I felt like the devil, hmmmm maybe, possibly 

Then I met my devil, And I admired our chemistry 

See I knew my God, but my devil was ah total mystery 

Yet very real indeed, and not just metaphorically 

Speaking, so I kept seeking, the devils history 

But only in secrecy 

Cuz I knew there was something 

Much deeper, behind the devils story 

So her voice, my voice, I stop ignoring, and began to listen intuitively 

And that voice said Chels you the shit, but at times we don't agree 

You so dam hard on ya self, cuz you think so differently 

Man I swear that has always been, your biggest insecurity 

But here's what I see... 

I see a beautiful woman, with the extraordinary ability 

To grow exponentially 

You evolve rather quickly 

You understand n love others, you love unconditionally 

you was Never afraid to rebel, and say fuck society

Never gave two fucks about opinions, you did whatever felt naturally 

A true poet at heart you are, with the power to paint your emotions, very vividly 

Your presence is outta this world, when will you realize, you are so worthy 

So Stop holding all your beauty, in that self created purgatory 

N just be yourself, love yourself, so many are inspired by your story

You touching so many lives, even the ones who don't show you the glory 

Place yourself on your own pedestal bc their acknowledgment isn't mandatory 

Just Be comfortable in the skin your in, your vessel, your divine territory 

Continue exploring

all your magic deep within, your mental laboratory 

And just Embrace all your weirdness, it's ok... you created your own category! 

#SelfLove