11 the number proven to be my gift n my curse
Given by someone who I considered my first
Ripped my heart into two n each day it feels worst
Feel like my heart bout to burst
Call the doctor call the nurse
Just put my body in a bag take me away in a hurst
Guess he playing a game of get back
Now feelings are reversed.
Never ever did I think anything could separate us
But it did
Gotta be a strong woman now for me n my kid
Feeling like I'll never love again , my heart shall forbid
If you walk away forever, my heart will never forgive
For as long as I live
Me from moving on
So tired of being strong
This shit feels so wrong
You shoulda just broke my heart sooner, why the fuck it took it so long?!
How can you just up n leave home
Leaving your wife to raise our kid alone
All I feel is numbness inside, have no more tears to even cry
This the worst fucking feeling man,I can't even lie
I hurt you you hurt me, we even, call that ah tie
Now I have no fucks to give, yes I'm all outta supply
Emotions so numb, the tears I cry come out dry
So save your words of persuasion, and don't you dare even try
To convince me not to give up when clearly you kno why
Ashanti playing in my head, "Cant believe that's it's over baby, every bruise on my heart you gave me"
That's how I kno it just time for me to say good bye
Pain can teach lessons that pride refuses to let you learn
Broken so many hearts along my way, now karma says it's my turn
Now I'm dealing with a broken heart, but like usher Ima let it burn
Made a promise to myself, next one will definitely have to earn
Top spot in my spiritual temple, shall be my only concern
It's gonna hurt to hate you but loving you feels way worse
Yea I felt that shit cardi, so much truth in that one verse
Am I wrong to say that love can sometimes feel like a gift n a curse
It's like heaven n hell decided to get together
Creating the sun n the rain, producing emotional type of weather
Fuck it it's whatever
I knew I shoulda never
Fell in love with your potential with broken promises of forever
Now I gotta be this heartless bitch, just to cut ties that was built to never sever
Love is ah tricky verb, keeps you on your toes, how clever
Something as simple as ah four letter verb
Can leave even the strongest feeling disturbed
Cuz when ah heart breaks in half, I swear the eruption can be heard