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You want to know what it’s like to be me

You want to understand how I feel

You say that you want to feel and go thru what I do

Do you feel my fear

My fear of just about everything

Do you feel my hate

That grows deeper each day

Do you feel my abused heart

That once loved everything

Do you feel my loneliness

Which only has one cure

Do you feel my frustration

Feel my sorrow

For the one’s I’ve lost along the way

Feel my soul shatter

Like the glass you just broke

Feel this agony

The agony I feel everyday

Feel this nothingness

Realizing that’s all I’ll ever be … nothing

Feel my weakness

Then hear how everything tells you that you’re strong

After trying to kill yourself several times

See what it feels like to pretend

To pretend that you’re ok, when you’re dying inside

See what it feels like to be pitied

Whether it be self-pity or from the people who call you “friend”

To dream of things

That will never happen to you

See what it’s like to rarely have feelings for someone

Then open yourself to them, only to get hurt

See what it’s like to have a body that’s been used and abused

Look at my flashbacks

Still want to feel like me

Look at my scars

Still want to love me

Look at my past

Still wish you could take my pain and make it yours

Look into my eyes

And try to tell me that you don’t see my emptiness

Look, watch me crumble

Still wishing to know how I feel

I am beginning to only feel for what I’m not afraid of

And that would be death itself.