You cry slow, dirty tears
They roll down your cheek
A sweet silence surrounds us so I'd rather not speak
Indulge in the quiet
Appreciate still
I'll write down the words with ink and a quill,
"My darling, I'm sorry, it's all a mistake. I've had all the pain that my poor heart can take."
Alas, a word spoken,
"My heart too is broken."
"Shhh...", I gestured
And you took on the notion
Again I lift my instrument making melodies from pure heartache
Flowing with the steady sound
Of each miserable breath you slowly take
"End it now before it's too late. Comfortably numb is my present state. However, horrible is that to begin to know hate."
You let out a sigh
Watching you carefully form tears in your eyes
My spirit has died
"I don't understand if you love me so, why continue to let arguments grow? Why leave me wondering with each word you said? Why turn away late night in our bed? Why call her name instead of mine? Why let me stray from The Divine?
It's over, don't speak. No need to explain. Don't worry, I know. It's time that I go. To you, all my blessings I send. But you know and I know this chaos must end."
I stand up straight and look away
Tell my heart I won't be back
Begin to walk and turn again
And place my pen where I once sat
The silence was peaceful but my soul was shook
One last look in your eyes I took
I brake down in tears
Slow, dirty tears
This was the moment I always had feared
We've forsaken each other
There's nothing more left
Now comes the search for the meaning of breath