you were my father
at least you were supposed
to be
early pictures showed
you loved me more than anything
later i learned more about you
you were in and out
of jails and prison
and my life
and for what?
drugs and violence
you were there one minute
and gone the next
i didn't know what to think
of you
should i trusst you
should i trust what
i hear abaout you
you used to tell meyou would take me places
and get me things i wanted
but wait
that never happened
for so many years
i believed it all
i believed your lies
you were just trying to
keep me happy
but i honestly just wanted
the truth
the whole-hearted truth
when you passed away
i regretted what i said
"i love you but
dont talk to me until
you can tell the truth"
i regretted it but
i never regretted loving
you
you gave me life
but you were not a father
to me