It's easier to be The Good Girl
the generous, open-minded, secure girl
when That Girl is far
far away
When you're safe from spontaneous
intrusions
or when you know that
crossing paths
on a late-night-fat-pants-clad ice cream run
is clearly a nonissue
So much more tolerable if That Girl
isn't quite as pretty or witty
or as smart as you
if she's quietly content being plain
and outshined
because she knows
(her place)
she knows she can't hold the spotlight
not around you
When you know That Girl isn't really
competition
Not to be mean but
she actually, in a weird way
makes you feel sort of better about yourself
And if there's going to have to be a That Girl
she should not
by her very existence
make you question everything
Everything you were so goddamn sure
you already knew about
your relationship
about him
and even about yourself