Sometimes there are other means
And different motives behind dreams
Still sometimes I have to wonder
How I got this far underneath
There are things I never would have known
And places that I could only dream to go
There is a quilt of life upon my bed
Each square has a story sewn into it by lead
I know what it feels like to be defeated
And I can never forget about how I’ve been treated
Behind these blue eyes
Is the hardest place to vanquish lies
There are stories that cannot be told
Simply because of the horrendous acts they sold
The things they said to me were quite bold
But I never knew the meanings until I got “old”
I have no regrets
We left everything behind at the steps
I have no guilt embedded into my heart
There is no pain and nothing to start
Can you find a place
That you could easily erase
Mistakes of a long forgotten past
Feelings of being numb inside cannot be cast
Away with the rest of my fears
The tragic cycle that began during these years
All the mistakes are over and gone
Now is the time for me to move on
But still I feel numb inside
Is there a place where I don’t have to hide
Rules are always so hard to abide
Sometimes it’s hard to find people to confide
And trusted enough to call a friend
A friend is someone who will help end
The struggles and all the pain
That can sometimes be enough to drive you insane
This is what I have forgotten
Any love could be begotten
I want to take back my life
And stop living in the misty dark strife
There is no turning back now
You reap what you sew
So now I’ll go below
Come hell or high water
I know that I am a daughter
Also a lover, a sister, and friend to slaughter
But still the innocent blood that was shed here today
Could cause anyone to change their ways
But listen to the words you suffocate me with
I refuse to die and give in to your demands
No longer will I roam alone in the sands.