I Try
I've loved many times before
But now I have no idea how to feel
I've reached deep down inside
I try
But nothing seems real
Is it anger or fear
Will it ever subside?
I have hidden now for so long
Dug a deep hole and crawled right in
Memories now seem to only show the wrong
The beauty of love
Now almost completely hidden
Can I reach out and let someone into my heart
Am I really able to give back what I receive?
Do I try from the start
Knowing that she will probably one day leave?
Understand that I believe that I try
But somewhere inside
I cover up and hide
I try
But alone I cry
As the rain pours from my eyes
Maybe someday
I will be able to do more than try
To be able to put the fear away
That love is a lie.