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"First Snow Drifts To Us"
First Snow Drifts To Us
On a night where North Texas awaits its first snow of the year
I've sat here beneath the breath of beautiful stars
cherishing the poetry that touches my heart and soul,
It has gotten me thinking
and remembering
how much I've lost these past few Winters.
First there was a young man that was like a son to me,
a Father who had no children of his own
but was lucky enough to be blessed with a special star
whose smile lifted each spirit who came across his sky,
and then Heaven called this angel home,
and we as a community cried
pouring tears in a loss of a precious gift.
Yes, Josh meant that much to all of us
and I will never forget what he was
for me.
I lost both of my babies of thirteen years,
my shadow and my little miss independent
both my world of joy.
We worked together
We ate together
We slept together
and each puppy breath and kiss
that came with them was filled with love,
and it was Unconditional.
Then Heaven called them both home
they suffered no more
the cancer was gone,
still I cried.
Yes, they meant that much
and I will never forget the joy they brought
to everyone,
especially me.
My sister had traveled a long and hard journey,
and then she met Tim
"The Postman" as everyone lovingly referred to him.
He loved my sister and took care of her,
and she him,
and I smiled in their happiness.
Then came that long and winding road,
a bike and a tree,
and Heaven called him home that November day.
I will never forget her screams when I walked to that spot
I knew she felt she had lost everything
as she crumbled into my arms,
and we cried together as they carried away her Marine.
Yes, he meant that much to her
to everyone,
even me.
Pop aged rapidly the last Summer leading to Winter,
I fought so hard to try and stop it
he was slowly fading with each step and breath taken
and I got mad,
how truly sad.
When he broke his hip I knew inside he was never coming back
Mom knew it too,
I could feel it in her tears
seeing the toll the years were taking.
I tried so damn hard to make him live
and he got so angry
he just wanted to be gone
and I finally gave in,
telling him that last day "It's ok Pop, I understand"
He squeezed my hand and told me with small breaths
"I know son"
Later that February night, Heaven finally called him home,
and the whole room cried.
Yes, he meant that much to all of us,
He was my Giant
and I had just lost a big part of me.
It was nine months and two days later
Cancer was destroying the grace and beauty
of a Mother for all seasons,
and in the end she still worried about me
God how I cried!
We, her children, were all there
when the last breath of our beautiful Mother
was called home to Heaven
God how we cried!
Yes, she meant that much to us
she was our holiday
Every Day,
especially mine.
On a night where I am still awaiting the first snow
I remember everything,
Josh
My Babies
Tim
Pop
Mom,
and Love,
Yes I lost that too.
But when you really think about it
do you really lose those who mean so much to you,
can you really lose love that you knew was forever?
I think not,
each will always have a special place in your heart
you will always hold them there
Forever,
Yes, even Love,
for when it takes your breath away
fills your life with happiness
warms the comfort of every thought you ever dreamed,
how could all that ever leave?
It can't
They can't,
and the love we shared never will either
No,
not for me.
