i am now confuse; often irritable and callous
all of a sudden i’m too anxious
then after a while back to my blues
disheveled illusions conquer me through
quick to react even to petty cues
one day i realized my system explodes
suddenly i begun keeping things up close
sensitive to everything that has no cause
how i wish for my partner to understand
that these symptoms are getting at hand
no pills can cure my disturbing transitions
for this i’m sure every woman can follow
that at forty this excruciating thing follows
written 10/18/2002