i'm so afraid
of this
i don't want
any of this
when i have
something to say
my words
are stuck in the bay
can't stand
to look in your eyes
my knees
are colliding
can't be
by your side
but can't be
complete without
your smile
and when
you pass by
my stomach
is filled
with butterflies
oh my!
i hate what i feel
this irrational
fear--irrepressible
and when i see you
with her
i feel like
slitting her throat
over and over