so very fractured is
the spirit
lost in the entanglement
of the aching heart
dark pot holed paths lay ahead
miseries yet to be unearthed
joy I hear is but around the corner
a receptacle I cannot quite yet put
my finger in
one particular nostalgia only slices
and hurts
no peace truly do my memories give
just more longing for a better outcome
built on the foundation of those days
and truths we shared
now I am just praying like Abraham
that you were not a really good actor
playing the role of your lifetime
just to make our experiences lovely
in the moment
so much so that they seemed so genuine
and sincere
all this anguish and torture will be well worth
it
if by some chance it serves a better purpose
you are pursuing
so that in the end we get what we discussed
a lifetime of togetherness
that no one can take from us............
(Jan 25, 2014 919pm)