few things in this world have I ever truly missed
yet in my mind so many mental snap shots that
I have of you and hold so very dear reveal themselves
to me
and as I go over them, my heart slows its beat
I miss the sight of your face as you are stepping out
of the shower
your hair so wetly splashed over your forehead
your eyes the color of warm spectacular coal
glistening so deeply with love as you look at me
curiously surprised
those numerous afternoons and nights out sitting across
from you at lunch or dinner
the warmth and conversation flowing so stunningly beautiful
between us
that later in the night we both would invariably comment
on how wonderful earlier that day had been well even into
the evening
how so often you would catch me studying your face intently
and cock up those dark eyebrows as if to ask what
and I would confess I am taking mental snap shots of you for
the days to come when you are so very far from me
now through those very pages gathered, my eyes begin to skim
you in profile out on the street as we are about to cross
so proud and savage you look but so very kind and strong as well
how handsome and carefree you appear while laughing in conversation
throwing up your hands this way and that to make some proposed point
with the Indian waiters engrossed as they were in your uproarious tale
My eyes devoured you so many times in those unguarded moments
and in the room, my head upon your bare shoulder, you watching television
and how you would feel my eyes upon you and cast your own into the path
of mine
such sweet, little boy eyes you had then
and as you would, speak my eye line would stray to your mouth
how I loved your lips with their polished though misaligned teeth
and how they would softly move as you explained such lovely thoughts
of yours to me
first in one of your mother tongues and then the translation so carefully
into English
those moments above me when we in such an intimate tangle
that look of pure amazement that scampered across your features
as you loved me so completely yours
and it's not just looks but things you would say and you alone know what
they are but I'll never share them with this page
they are too private, too intimate and nobody but us has any rights to those
now never again can I go to Mcdonalds and eat a big mac without you coming
so immediately to my mind.
you with your pepper sprinkled ketchup muscling the french fries until they were
all fully dragooned
there are just a thousand little moments that sparkle so lovely
you can't just know how much I love that you so dearly do love me.................
(Dec. 8, 2013 705am)