for but this moment
I find
I am lost
I don't believe anyone knows
as I, all too brilliantly reflect
confidence and purpose
I often linger back in myself
those very hints
that portray that particular
sort of uncertainty to others
to the world of my peers
and family
I am going through a tough
patch certainly
but to them I appear to have
it all neatly thatched so
securely together
I exude this
and so
in my unanchored state
I must maneuver alone
sometimes worried and afraid
yes, those are the very crutches
I walk with today
'Worried And Afraid'
and yet I know that my inner
ability to be able to simply
point this out in myself
puts me one step closer
to the next productive
phase of my life
that of growing and learning
out of this currently terrible
and terribly private circumstance
so until that moment I must quiet
my fear and warn my worry to
marvelously behave............
(June 2, 2012 407am)