PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

today, if you were here
you would find me at my desk
with willing pen in hand
writing my first honest love and labor
like I originally from the very start had
planned
the memory of someone close
telling me
laughter precedes happy hearts
lays lovingly upon my brain
abstractly I see across the way
through the far window
trees getting pelted heavily with
the morning's relentless rain
I suppose I'm looking for a
mother's approval
that I know I'll never get
and taking a foolhardy gamble on
my 'Jostled Judgment' when I know
I shouldn't bet
my emotions run far behind me
as I quietly think
what seems like eons back
have I overextended myself yet again
or temporarily knocked myself off track
for letting myself get hurt
almost to the point of
being crippled
I have an undeniable knack
my belief in myself has just gone slack
conception of exactly what it is I've done
I do indeed seem to lack
my brilliance and ignorance rotating
at rapid intervals is a recognizable fact
I was really happy earlier today
when I finished a wonderful attempt at
an original self prose
It was like trying to paint ones self
as well as one can
and it wasn't too shabby as far as
a verbal painting goes
it's hard to run away from yourself
but you can if you try
the wish and will to do so
is a little strange
over that I will certainly be
the last to deny
either I'm really talented or just plain
obsessed
either way I just keep scribbling my odd
little scribbles and hope for the best
one day, when I am just too tired to
continue on
then I suppose I'll take my final rest
if life is like unexpected homework
then I feel the living of it we must do
must e the final test
to date with my unagreeable self
I don't feel all too very impressed
so I oblige myself and push forward on
even when I have noticeably regressed
on the part of the heart
I'm not so experienced, adept or smart
ah, but on the beauty and brashness
of the human brain
I find myself to be highly driven
and uniquely urbane.......
(written June 21,1991)