THE LONG PANORAMIC GOODBYE

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JOURNAL # 41

my over view is becoming clearer
so many prayers in tears
I've said as I shivered
amazing the release one
feels as the shattered pieces
finally start to come together
I'm not a deceptive person
so the journey through this
process is at best daunting
liberation of any sort
takes courage
at times it's so
terribly scary
but every moment
I better understand
just why it is
oh so necessary
the safety of one's sanity
guides each his life's
next action
I possess the tools
to transition to the
following phase
something deep in me
helps as it pulls
as what feels right
guides me firmly
through this malaise
over and over
I tell myself
I must be strong
though many arguments
I receive
my path though
uncertain
is not wrong
otherwise
it would feel
entirely
thus so
and it doesn't
so somehow
I must go on
and so
every subsequent day
I do
with the little victories
along the way
forever cheering me on
thank you God
for your love and mercy's
most wise guidance
it is my leaning on you
alone
that gets me through..........
(Sept. 5, 2011 1217pm)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

about the slow dissolution of my marriage...........

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