YOUR WORD

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JOURNAL # 41

I feel around in the dark
as I am still wholly uncertain
which light you, yourself
prefer to use
to help guide me
further
through this
private maze of self
that only you possess
the blueprints to
all pain builds from
repeated misunderstanding
I believe you to be one way
and you show me
whether directly or indirectly
that
you are another
I need you to be clear
if in anyway
you are uncertain
then how can I
grow to be more certain
lower your guard
show me your cards
cause frankly
I make such a lousy poker player
I don't have a game face
everything is written for you to see
in my eyes, in my words,
in my actions and deeds
pull me closer or push me away
whichever is fine
but stick to one
and go with it
no more inconsiderate tripping
I can only be as understanding
as the information you allot to
me allows
I am a fallible woman
who only wants to please
but I need 'Your Word' to be good
that if I'm really something to you
you have to be clear and show me
starting with
mean what you say
and
say what you mean
you are only as good
as 'Your Word'
in concern to me..................
(July 11, 2011 857pm)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this after having a long girl to girl talk with a friend of mine. She was having problems with a guy she is seeing and was talking how he would say one thing and do another and how confusing and hurting that was. This poem came to me after that conversation. I put myself in her place and imagined what I'd say to him after hearing all the particulars of the trouble from her. I sent her a copy as well and told her I hope it helps her to better communicate to him what she needs from him. Enjoy.

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