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an 'Awkward Peace'
comes over me
as smooth as glass
little conflicts here and there
continue
though still there exists so much contrast
some fog lingers
but guide sounds have formed
the term scary now
I would not so readily apply
cautiously optimistic
is the new norm buzz phrase
I use to get my inner self by
an awakening of some strain has
occurred
realistic expectations are beginning
to be heard
guilt still weaves in and out of my mind
that which leaves me with some concern
but my internal compass is solid
hurt somewhat still
though that it does
spiritual growing pains
I attribute that to
as I know this I do,
is what I must
my heart overrules my ever blurting mind
doubts and second guesses are tools
of negative forces pushing me from behind
such as that kind of path is carved in time
spiritually I am at peace
mentally I truck through the uncertain
land mines
I avoid my mind's eye contact
as I tuck my strength's chin
and walk farther and farther into the
mountains of uncertainty
because inside I feel certain
even when outside forces
label what is ahead of me
as such unstable times
the soul I believe comes here to
do what it is suppose to do
and timid as my mind tends to get
I feel I'm alright
no worse for the wear
unless material protection is all one
bases one's sole well being on
yet if that were in deed the case
then I should have stayed
where I am
right here
but that wasn't an option
I've been dreadfully unhappy
living such an empty life
and treading the water of
lying to myself and others that
all is well in the life pool of Melissa
when really all along I've been drowning
on the narrow ledge of a very sharp
water knife
and though physically inside I now
tremble somewhat
spiritually I stand stronger following
the path my soul before this life sought
tomorrow is my ally
and I must meet her without
weakness or fear...................
(May 9, 2011 1145pm)