I was born
a child of light
but darkness
I never feared
for I felt
even when I was
rather small
the complete mastery
from such skies
so full of stars so bright
and their memories
to this day
I still revere
yet strangely enough
an amazing form of a man
came into my life
just last year
and through his impressive writing skills
he's regularly revealed that the same
darkness for him
was something more than just dark
it held a blade so often to his mind and heart
a bitter fog of sadness reigned
with a darker and darker will
and through its jungles he walked
each night
until he reached the safety of
daylight's clear
my heart so often bled from
the regular reading of his words
I marveled that our thoughts on this could
be so different
when in everything else so very similar
he, who rose
when he could
from the ruptures of his sadness
for what few clips of joy he could gather
while I, myself chose
to revel in even the smallest
droplets of beauty
when everything else felt so small
desperate and unfair
for the better part of the last ten years
I've always believed
when we look for sadness we find only sadness
but if we turn that thought over on its ear
joy in even its smallest increments
can be a silver lining
and guide one through any maze of what
he or she most fears
that of never again attaining alas
an indeed
'A Worthwhile Love'
of one's own
and then questioning
ah but is it truly sincere
so just promise to trust me
and my ever honest, faithful love for you
for I am always going to be right here
as you so often love to say
come whatever
come what may
cause as I've told you
so many times before
I love you infinity squared
my so beloved Silly Bear..............
(Oct. 2. 2010 1011pm)