what we witnessed
was
a crackling of tension
unfolding
by lies I can not abide
promises cheaply spoken
then broken
shred my understanding
until its raw
love should not be mislead
its a violation of one's trust
and life's karma
I left that conversation
highly disillusioned
and feeling laughed at
for my concerns
I ate and napped fitfully
not wanting to return
but stay away and think
long and hard
are these aspects of you
that I'm to expect
excuses for bad behavior
amid claims of such great love
my thoughts and heart are
tangling together in turmoil
you've punched me where it
hurts
in my trust
and then tried to lighten the
mood with jokes
like none of that mattered
and that is what has me
reeling still............................
(Nov. 12, 2009 1141pm)