LEAVING THIS SELF ABSORBED HELL

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JOURNAL #35

the stupid fretful woman in me stands up

to take full reign

I am not only crushed by circumstance here

but by my very own heart break

a chasm of disbelief devours my

every step

the heart of this fool beats

out a hallow rhythm

dull and diminished

almost ignorant to its very own depth

how so faithfully, misunderstanding swims

that dirty sea of negotiation

trolling in the murky dark

a near dead fish

still patrolling

ever patrolling

but who knows really for what

perhaps a cave to slink into

somewhere beyond the reach of hurt

so to become some unseen enormous one's dinner perhaps

or maybe just its desert

anything to aid me in 'Leaving This Self Absorbed Hell'..........

(Aug. 16, 2009 611am)


Author's Notes/Comments: 

a poem I found from a ways back in my poetry notes unfinished. was dark and a bit depressing but I felt it had some merit to be finished and posted on here.

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