the stupid fretful woman in me stands up
to take full reign
I am not only crushed by circumstance here
but by my very own heart break
a chasm of disbelief devours my
every step
the heart of this fool beats
out a hallow rhythm
dull and diminished
almost ignorant to its very own depth
how so faithfully, misunderstanding swims
that dirty sea of negotiation
trolling in the murky dark
a near dead fish
still patrolling
ever patrolling
but who knows really for what
perhaps a cave to slink into
somewhere beyond the reach of hurt
so to become some unseen enormous one's dinner perhaps
or maybe just its desert
anything to aid me in 'Leaving This Self Absorbed Hell'..........
(Aug. 16, 2009 611am)