insecurity
rises to her full ugly height
towering over
my every last vestige of logic
why can't I defeat low self esteem
I so want to be enough
just as I am
not deemed better
if thinner
this is the bruised
ego having a tantrum
I am sure
but it feels so painfully real
love always comes with conditions
even when others swear
otherwise
and I am left feeling
so decidedly less
in their eyes................
(Sept. 23, 2009 529am)