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I know I must arrive somehow

at that place in my life

where what I have today

is slowly

purposefully

deconstructed

ere stripped away

If I am ever to rise from these ashes

of realized  emptiness

to meet you on any sustainable

plateau

its painful to look around

and see the true brokenness of

what was/is my life

I am a child almost

shivering in a wet towel

so many mistakes

surely they must be meant to be

cause how could one indirectly

so easily get here

and still be so confused

yet strangely clear

as to what her path

has become

and one day soon must be

we have stumbled through all our available seasons

it certainly would seem

can't keep walking in and out of this once so lovely

but now so bitter and distorted marriage dream

I am far too far out

now

and the water is too eerie

and dangerous

to safely swim free

alas I am getting quite tired

I keep my head above water

and try not to panic

and slog through

each day as it comes

yet somehow

no matter what

I know that  I am okay

and this is just another

unmarked crossroad

my journey is guiding me to

so it I must grow the courage

to some how take

for if I were meant to be

with that one said

particular one I mention

wouldn't I be so terribly sad

more so than just raw yet relieved

that all this downward driving

is taking place

I mean less and less to him

I see it in his eyes almost every day

the physical life he has given me

is still so lovely

but it now sits atop the grave

that once was the core of our

wedded being

my great deep love for him

amid his once great deep

love for me

and the foundation we built

our lovely home life on

once

has systematically eroded away

until there remains just

a he and a me

with both of us so quietly looking

away........................................

(Oct. 13, 2008 345am)