Anticipation's pleasant, damp,
nervous sweat
gave too embarrassingly away
my thought to be
most secret attraction to you
almost sorry was I
that you still noticed
notice now that I said
'Almost Sorry'
how so very self crushing of
me to admit
emotional masochists everywhere
must be fiercely applauding me
as I dictate further this
graphic linage
of my unrequited humiliation............
(Nov. 18, 2008 1027am)