I feel as if my breath is on hold
my body in a stasis of surreal suspended grief
I just exist these days
real living is something I will only one day do
with you
I can not even adequately describe
the loss I am feeling
its as remote to me as a medieval time
but I know it is temporary
because I know you
you will not stay away from me long
it goes against every fiber of want and
unfailing need in your character
and my belief in our future is golden
I read your words and look in your
bottomless eyes
and hope filters through me like a
fierce tender hug from you
and I know you hold me in your thoughts
so closely
for you have confessed this so many times
even though it may seem so now
still I know I am never far from you
distance is just an illusion of this hour
a series of steps through fog and mirrors
we must each take inching a little
closer to our end goal
mutual physical presence alas attained
this is the state of desires sweet necessity
when two hearts look only towards
each other for peace, passion, love, joy
and the sweetest of all comforts allowed
a true home in such a love's arms
so know that wherever you are
my home is there in you
waiting to be welcomed
and received......................
(March 27, 2008 330am)