restraint would be proud of me
if she could speak
my angers I somehow keep in check
even as my morals I pen so bleak
the best in me scrambles for a fresh vest
of identity
when labels for their deeds are being handed
out
grasping to make any form of contest
with some shard of personal truth
I bloody well knock myself about with the
handiest rocks of doubt
who cares if my favorite pen is quick to jot
down my jumbled thoughts in either black or blue
a scream is still only a scream
even if issued to the wind
yet, no one knows who is around to hear it when
and if it makes it through
yes, misery loves company
but the path of laughter runs quite narrow
the wings I once dreamed I had now lay in tatters
my heart is crushed by the mere sight of even
the smallest sparrow
did you ever hear about the fierce lion who wished
he were nothing more than a common mouse
out in a farmer's field
in the end, he never got what he wanted
but when he lay dead
he lay dead as a proud lion
whose sacrificed heart of courage was in one
violent yet beautiful instant fatefully sealed
pride holds the heftiest price tag where life and
death are concerned
so do not feel cheated little mouses
for your fates couldn't get much worse
than that of your master Sir Lion
perhaps in another sheet of life's book
you and the dear lion's places will get to be
turned.............................
(Jan. 2. 1996)