the myth how it misses me
the pitter-patter of a hard won
promise clobbers the fledgling spirit
of this poor battered heart
there are no real walls to climb
but oh, how I wish that there were
and Big ones!
darkness ignores my weak objections
pitiful apathy growls inside me
only to be silenced
by the trembling fingers of the smallest
shard of peace
purity breaths deeply of my confusions
while the mere mention of religion only
hampers my quest
age old demons scream for their release
where can all my good sense have gotten to
behind mirrored logic's back I flea
hope sustains my injured journey
I am well aware of the power of prayer
so I pray
and all comes alas into focus
there will never be another of the tattered
likes of me
the utter simplicity of my complex oneness
overwhelms my sense of good fortune
forgive me Lord
for questioning the not to be known...........
(Dec. 24, 1995)