where are my thoughts
in this wreath of 'Lending Sadness'
do they follow me to the part where
the question why? fails to deliver
reason behind the upheaval
that sends tears to their designated fall
I feel so unbelievably much
yet can label nothing clearly at all
who or what do I miss
or better yet
what is missing me
and why when I close my ravaged eyes do I
almost imagine how the true reflection of
happiness must appear to be
like my coursing life is not quite complete
an answering stranger am I one day supposed
to meet
somehow not here but on a sunny mid western
street
the sharp lunacy of it all must mock me to
believe
that the change that is needed will occur
before I am cemented in my life
but first there is more I must somehow achieve
that singularly elusive stepping stone
will catapult me to my life's end home
with him there on out
I can only hope till the ends of tomorrow's
shadow he and I will roam.................
(Oct. 5, 1995)