bittersweet was the fright
which had me in its grip
as I strode into the room
facing yet again the man
I once so long ago loved
where as now a stranger
stared coldly back at me
like he were some demigod
of doom
audaciously assessing my worth
'you cut your glorious hair'
were the only words I truly heard
the rest became absorbed by the initial
shock
all this senseless sniping
this dire fishing for safe conversation
how tiring
why the notion was positively absurd
leaving me feeling like nineties version
of the Keystone Cop
completely disorientated and confused
running in hilarious circles
as if I were chasing a car rolling down
hill backwards
with no real remote possibility of ever
hoping to catch it
or on for that matter
his warm, familiar hand automatically reached
for mine
as if it were deemed welcome
I was nonplussed
yet still stepped back all the same to avoid
any further contact
the verbal form was enough
I'll venture to state
his reaction though clever was quite aplomb
the tension that trapped us constricted the
air in which I breathed
his, 'Good day Madame, you must pardon my
unwelcome familiarity for I fear I momentarily
mistook you for someone I once so dearly loved'
left me struck rather dumb
but as he took his somewhat discomforted leave
I must admit I was sorry even as I was relieved....
(May 1, 1996)