your flesh
in my own two hands
beneath the shower's throbbing spray
the erotic pictures in my mind's eye
you can not imagine how they
preoccupy that is
and indulge me to delay
a few minutes longer with my eyes closed
just to see you there behind my lids
feel you
enjoy the naked nearness of you
all that heat
your width and breadth
and the very realness of your
oh so wanting male flesh
you are a banquet to my senses
a hunger I can not forget
and I wonder if now
I'm so near that of being obsessed
by my mere mental images of you
how will it be
when I really have you
standing there before me
looking at me
wanting me
making me tremble
from simply
touching me
what will that do to me
to feel you real and alive
at last
breathing in the same breaths
I too breath
your low somber voice further
encouraging me
to share in these unbearable needs
right now that still just seems
like a far off dream
and what a dream you are
it so goes beyond the fact
of your physical beauty
its more so what you say
and don't say to me
its in the way you tease
me
and those little things you
let slip
and play silly word games with me
that make me gasp and close my
eyes to hold such images of you
longer within
your consistency itself
grows arms of its own
to hold me so very close
you don't know how so very
much I just feel you
each new admission you make
impossibly crushes me deeper
into your arms
I know so well that part of
you that is always reaching
out for me
we really are good for each
other
sincerely, truly
I can really say this
and one day we really will
manage to just
Be
ourselves that is
together
and with each other
always free
to laugh
to live
to look
to share
to hold
to dare
to tease
but best of all
always
to love
physically of course
but just as well
nearest and dearest
to each other's heart
hmmmmph, now I'm starting
to sound like a Victorian novel
so I'll stop here
before you start to ache further
from missing my tender loving heart
what was that?
you say
already
too late!
ah if so then hush my love
for one day soon
I'll kiss even that pain away.................
(Feb. 9, 2008 333am)