he said it would never happen again
well, guess what
never finally awoke from that same dream
he had been living in
just like they said
and I'm the one who must once again
pick up what is left of the still shaking
pieces
the ones he all too easily disregarded as my
worthless, wounded feelings
the honeymoon is not only over
it is dead
laying prone and lifeless right along side
all my previously beaten and battered hopes
I can hear the taxi I phoned for earlier
pull up out by the curb
a meaningful and self fulfilling life
breathlessly awaits me
at last
starting once I am safely tucked inside
that welcome cab's confines
luck it seems is to alas be mine
as it hauls me and my once again, for the
last time, battered and bruised sad self
over to the entrance office at the local
women's shelter
though I have not a dime nor an item to my
name
I find myself quite rich in my final rock
bottom decision
I shall never be knocked around nor down
again
I shall remain ever the victorious truth
and revived self respect
guide me in my charged and glorious fight
to gain escape
where as he is left on the cold kitchen
tiles
where he belongs
knocked unconscious by my trusty companion
and last minute weapon
my now lethal cast iron skillet
(a belated anniversary gift he once gave me)
with a lit cigarette still burning in his hand
by the police finding him
they too in my arrest will unknowingly free
me of a most degrading imprisonment unto hell
now he is alone in his vicious lair of evil
and punishable hate
and I am strangely enough in a dingy yellow
cab
my shimmering chariot draws away from my disgust
and the curb
whisking me off to meet my kind, handsome prince
atop a white fiery steed
who is aptly enough named
my intended destiny!.................
(Oct. 17, 1996)