there is hope that lives deep inside me
and it is a hope of stellar proportions
though a mere slip of a hope all the same
without even for itself a proper name
a heading as you will for us
all and our finer points of accomplishment
a silent manifestation yet sorted out
by even the most logical ailment of all man
to put it simply
loneliness
she harbors a real concern for the nations
a threat almost
that begs in guttural litany
to be acknowledged
suicide never had itself so publicized
as it does now
there are such great immodest lessons to be
learned at the throats and cost of other's
devastating tragedies
why is death so damned alluring to a lonely
rejected as an out cast teen
when it scares the majority with any accountable
amount of age upon them to the point of pure
and utter obsession
last minute withdrawn silent screams all over
the world fail to be heard at any given hour
by too human ears to our greater collective
detriment
yet in our sunken deafness and grief
God awaits us
loving us all the more as he weeps
and he hears us all too well
with his far superior Godly hearing
than that of mere mortal man and his
unconditional love's sweet omnipotent
perfection
even the most foully battered of all warrior
souls
stands to inherit a place to sit upon the
Lord's eternal lawn of peace
relaxing to drink a tall cool glass of never
empty lemonade
as the Saints play the Angels in an invigorating
afternoon game of crochet in Heaven
while the Lord laughs and looks on
so undecided though no matter how divided
be our even most enjoyable fate!.............
(April 15, 1997)