its almost enough you know
your loving me as you do
but the aching echoes of 'not quite'
still reverberates continuously
onward through
the warmest chambers of my heart
which twists me rather unmercifully in two
I'm crushed like those beloved daisies
picked and held jubilantly amid the tight
grip of an over excited four year olds
clenched fingers
no long awaited for spring lounges in my
Wintery lethargic thoughts now
only the stiff salty breeze of scantily
clad melancholy lingers
isn't it so terribly ironic
how we fight and fight
yet seem to gain so very little
by way of necessity's insight
into the realm of where another fellow
human being's life time, love and lore
is concerned
there ought to be a viable medium
a pre-chosen place on which to merge
so we don't feel as if our vain attempts
to overthrow the foe of a frosty heart
we are subsequently being spurned
that just wouldn't couldn't somehow do
a pale sick apathy like that of the
harshest, foulest bile in the soul forces
the smallest negativity to purge
and mine spirit's own vanquished vanity for
the sake of another more tempered fate
falls silent victim to the tell tale symptoms
of an ever so overly emotional flu
and from this newly fertile ground that is where
the flowers of true maturity bloom deep within
us and colorfully emerge
like bright, beautiful rainbows
after a steady replenishing rain
on a hazy afternoon.................
(Feb. 6, 1997)