how do you argue with empty?
and just when does tomorrow choose
to cut off the pain
are the answers really worth the ache in the searching
when aspects of love become so bitterly convoluted
until the clear recognition of before
gets so blinded
that what is now
seems almost a clownish representation
of what one thought it was only moments before
that has to be the twistedness of perception
no doubt
who am I aching for?
you?
or the you I believed you were
or worse yet
myself in happier circumstance
flailing as I am now in current time
shattered glass can not so easily be restored
there are always pieces lost
and still we must get up, go on
and learn to function again minus a part of us
that was there before
today my love for you hurts like a deep wound
all because you evade me
and deliberately have chosen to hide yourself
from me
for reasons I can not yet fathom
and it hurts to realize
you have done this by choice
or procrastination
and nobody but you
has the cure to make these senseless wounds
of mine heal
so I must ask you
are you soothsayer ( healer)
or heartless bastard
of those many months prior
the answer for me
lays in your words
you've yet even spoken
the question is
in all my 'Damage'
will I even be able to hear them
if you do...............................
(June 22, 2009 246am)