a plush penchant for the sun of mourning
daunted my every step away from mine
lover's door
his heaving shadow loomed behind my murky
misted eyes
until I thought I could not stand such blasted
vision anymore
a miracle thus past
my longest, harshest night
his arms, oh how they held me thus steadfast
dearest understanding reader
you can not imagine my plaintive retreater's
plight
alone at the inn now
battling its darkest passages
for the shortest journey out into the warm,
welcome rays of such a redeeming light
my needful tread grew weary
my head down and drown in mental ink of leery
as I forced myself away from my once fondest
delight
my heart how she fluttered so frantically within
my mad escaper's breast
I shutter though never shall forget such a
hungry harrowing fright
desperately away from this fraught experience
now, I must surely myself divest
and alas like the snow dust before magic
new wisdom descended upon me
the clean, white door to an offered fresh
beginning flew wide open before my eyes
I found myself drawn in
so I reached and was wholely received
torn from me, thankfully
was my disbeliever's formal guise............
(June 25, 1996)