the door is no longer open
so, how can we continue to write
this properly poised pen and I
the entrancing vision becomes blurred
while the page seems to shy away from
my too eager hand
the hot blankness in my mind
speaks to me
but so softly now that angels would have to
lean closer to hear
and I and my pen claim to be a poet
Hah!!
disenchanted jest rides my sunken shoulders
as of late
'til I am laughing at myself enforced dilemma
so transparent is the spirit behind the mutual
attempt
care to help me now dear pen?
ah, just as I thought
you see the wall too
even in darkness
like me
now, let us together climb
do not worry though
dear weathered friend
for the painter of words
has only stopped to pause
for a breath..................
(Sept. 6, 1994 pm)